Thursday, February 23, 2012 at 4:45 Looking Back to the Future
Ok, so I stole part of that title from a slightly famous film… but it's for a good reason.
Yesterday was the 4 year anniversary of my first week living in China. 4 years… wow. It's amazing how things can change — and other things stay the same — in 4 years time.
Living overseas for an extended period has this effect of making one feel like they've run away from certain things back home. I certainly had that feeling to a degree, even though I knew with all my heart that going to China was the right choice. Now that I'm back, I'm having to deal with some of those things I ran away from — the American race for success, living paycheck to paycheck, and others. While all of these things exist for millions of Chinese too, they are completely devoid from the life of an ex-pat teaching English.
Now that I have a wife to support and more additions to our family (hopefully) at some point, the pressure is rising. It is in these moments of uncertainty that I tend to isolate myself and my heart and turn away from God. It is in these moments that I feel like I must figure this all out myself — since it's my mess to begin with. Pray with me that I would not turn in on myself, but instead open my heart to his control and plan. I can't thwart his plan for my life, but I can certainly — much like Samson — miss out on all the joy and excitement that comes with following in God's steps.
Thanks for listening.


